in the darkest night...

sometimes, i may be out of the line. like today, and some other days. and i'm sorry. i won't say that i forget who you really are, because i never can forget that. even when i'm with you, the knowledge is there at the back of my mind. it's not fair for me to say i wish things could be different. because then, all things that matter to you and what you cherish now would be lost. and i do not wish that for you.

i am being selfish at times. i envy the times that i am away from you. whatever i do, wherever i go, you're at the back of my mind. and when i feel at ease, i start to ask for things that i know you couldn't give. please don't feel guilty. i know i should not ask for them, but at times, i lost my internal battle.

but believe me that the times i spend with you are cherished. and will always be remembered. if fate takes us in a journey that we will embark together, i would gladly walk the road, knowing you would always be by my side. but if fate dictate otherwise, i will not cry for i know it's not meant to be.

for all i know, you might be using your charms on me. make me go putty inside with your sweet words and warm touches. for all i know, you might be playing games, and your words are just... words.

but if they come from the heart, pure and honest, i thank you for the feeling that you invoke in me. it's sweet. but you shall know that it might never be. for i might belong to you but you can never be only for me.

-the end-

what were you thinking? a love letter or something? hehe... it's just me at the higher plane of imagination. ciao people, i'm going home.